TMAWNB [ABO] 7 - Confession

 

Totally Marked by an Alpha Who's Not My Boyfriend [ABO]

Chapter 7 - Confession

When Chu Ling saw Lin Xuan again, it was another month.

Although Chu Ling has moved to Han Gu's place now, it is not surprising that the two have been together for a long time, and some living habits will inevitably overlap. In the past, he avoided it as much as he could, but it has been three months since the breakup. Although the love still exists, those impulses at the beginning have been almost worn down.

This night, he saw Lin Xuan in the bookstore he used to go to on weekdays, but this time, he saw someone beside Lin Xuan.

A handsome man, with a slightly thin stature, if not a Beta, he is probably an Omega.

In this modern age where inhibitors are common, the pheromones of personal attributes have been well hidden. Although one or two can be judged from physical fitness and health conditions, the accuracy rate is not high. Alpha is the best group of people who recognize them. Smart, outstanding, stronger and taller than the average person, most of them are in a leadership position, of course, there are exceptions due to different personal physiques. The most difficult to distinguish are Beta and Omega, they are not very different in appearance, and it is almost impossible to distinguish them at a glance.

Perhaps it is because of the long-term exercise, Chu Ling's physical fitness is quite good, and his appearance looks more like Beta.

It's hard to say whether Han Gu had mistakenly thought that Chu Ling was a Beta before he chose to attack him.

If Han Gu couldn't leave him alone because Chu Ling didn't get into heat earlier, then that night could only be considered a rape; and if Han Gu wasn't drugged at the time and his mind was clear enough, maybe he still had a solution Restrained his behavior and called Lin Xuan to deal with it in time, then none of this would happen today.

There are many yin and yang differences in life that are helpless, and even a short-lived thought is enough to affect a lifetime.

That's why Han Gu said that it was an accident.

It was indeed an accident. If it weren't for all kinds of coincidences, they wouldn't be bound by the AO bond now.

It was not the first time that Chu Ling had struggled with this issue. Even if he knew it was meaningless, he could not help but think about it and question it.

Just like now, he knew that he and Lin Xuan were no longer possible, and he was still deeply swaying in his feelings for him. He could almost only look at the person standing beside Lin Xuan with jealous eyes, but he couldn't do anything.

He could not hinder Lin Xuan's freedom to fall in love. He said that he hoped that Lin Xuan could find someone better than himself. Even if that is counterintuitive.

Chu Ling didn't know how he came home.

He only felt that in the past three months, he seemed to be riding a roller coaster, and his mood was always ups and downs between expectation and loss. Whenever he thought he could put it down, an inadvertent stimulus immediately fell into a low ebb.

He has told himself countless times in his heart to let go, to let go, to let go, but he still can't do it well.

He is not reconciled, he is really not reconciled...

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When Han Gu returned home, the room was dark. Instead of sleeping in the room, Chu Ling was drinking in the living room.

The strong smell of wine permeated the whole room. Han Gu turned on the light and saw that the table and the ground were in a mess. The opened wine bottle was overturned, and the wine was poured on the ground along the edge of the table. It seemed that he had already drunk a lot. a long time.

Seeing such a situation, Han Gu narrowed his eyes dangerously.

And Chu Ling seemed to be unaware and turned a blind eye. If it were normal, he would definitely feel Han Gu's strong anger, but now, he doesn't seem to care about anything.

Han Gu restrained himself from shouting immediately, and said in a suppressed tone, "Chu Ling, stop drinking."

If the target is just an ordinary passerby, Han Gu might not be meddling. But in the face of his own Omega, no matter how good-tempered he is, it is difficult to restrain him.

Chu Ling's hand stopped in mid-air, and then trembled as if he was using all his strength to resist Alpha's coercion. He found that all his resistance was in vain, so he glanced at Han Gu with anger, and shouted in an almost resentful tone: "Don't mind me."

Han Gu didn't speak, just walked in the direction of Chu Ling.

Chu Ling only felt uncomfortable all over, and there was an instinctive fear in the discomfort, but still stubbornly said: "It's all your fault. If it wasn't for you..."

It's almost like telling the truth after drinking, and Chu Ling finally said the words that shouldn't be said while drinking.

Han Gu suddenly stopped, his face gloomy and scary.

Chu Ling knew that he had said too many things, but he didn't think about regretting it, he just closed his eyes in fear, waiting for Han Gu's anger to erupt at any time. However, the expected punishment did not come, but a fluttering sentence was heard first.

Han Gu said, "It's my fault."

Chu Ling was stunned by this sentence. He almost forgot his fear, staring blankly as the man approached step by step and sat down beside him.

Han Gu added, "You can hurt me, but you can't hurt yourself."

Chu Ling didn't know what his reaction was at all. When he heard this sentence, he only felt blank in his mind. When he came back to his senses, Han Gu's hand had already touched the corner of his eyes. He suddenly felt that his eyes were blurred, and he did not know when he had burst into tears.

The intimidating aura on Han Gu's body has completely disappeared, replaced by a gentleness that is usually hard to see, "What happened?"

His voice was a little hoarse, and he was tired after working overtime. For some reason, hearing such an inquiry, Chu Ling only felt that all the grievances in his heart erupted at this moment. He had never cried bitterly before, but this time suddenly I felt that the tears were flowing non-stop, and I couldn't stop it no matter what.

Drunk and almost suffocating sobbing came up at the same time, and he felt dizzy and couldn't even speak.

Han Gu was probably affected by Chu Ling's strong emotional fluctuations, and he could hardly restrain some impulses. He didn't seem to think about it at all. As soon as he grabbed the back of Chu Ling's neck, he kissed it directly.

It was a kiss that was so bland that there was almost no eroticism, just pure comfort.

I don't know if it was because of Han Gu's strong action or because of this gentle kiss, Chu Ling actually forgot to cry, opened his eyes wide and looked at the man's handsome face up close.

"Look, Keep looking and I'm going to kiss you again."

Chu Ling took a step back in fright, his face flushed, and he didn't know if he was drunk or ashamed. But he had completely calmed down by this time, but his mind was still a little dizzy after a night of heavy drinking.

Gu Han asked again: "What happened?"

Instead, Chu Ling lowered his head and remained silent. He didn't know what to say to his Alpha about another man, and it was because he was so jealous that he was going crazy.

Although Chu Ling didn't speak, Han Gu could probably guess it. From their cohabitation until now, Chu Ling's heart has always only thought of one man.

Han Gu didn't know much about love, but when he looked at Chu Ling, he seemed to understand to some extent.

The silence between the two did not last long.

Han Gu suddenly said, "Anyway, you should blame me."

Chu Ling was stunned for a moment.

"My mother, an Omega woman, and my father, an Alpha, but I've never met him."

Although Chu Ling didn't know why Han Gu suddenly mentioned these things, what shocked him the most was what happened next.

"She was raped and completely marked by the other party, so she had to give birth to me."

When Han Gu said this, his tone was very flat, but the anxiety vaguely revealed in the pheromone let Chu Ling know that he was not so calm in his heart. An indescribable feeling suddenly appeared in his heart, but he still listened to Han Gu quietly.

"The society at that time didn't have any concept of protecting Omega. And that man never appeared again. In my impression, my mother was always restless because she had no relationship with Alpha, but she was in front of me. She has been holding back and not showing it, in fact, she is not far from a mental breakdown. If it wasn't for me, maybe she would have committed suicide long ago. "

"Later the government had emergency remedies, stipulating that fully marked Alphas and Omegas must be married to show responsibility, which can reduce the crime rate while reducing the death rate of Omegas. But there are still many disputes, just like we are now. "Han Gu pointed out this fact unceremoniously, "Although I can't fully understand it, but from you, maybe from my mother, I can see that not being able to bond with someone you love seems to be really painful thing."

"I'm sorry, I... I don't know..." Chu Ling felt dull in his heart. He wasn't sure whether it was his own feeling or the influence of the other party. He just suddenly remembered what he had said just now, so he couldn't help but want to apologize.

"It's me who should apologize. I did the same thing as that scumbag." Han Gu paused, then said, "Although this is very painful for you, I'm actually very fortunate, at least... There is also an opportunity for compensation."

That night, Chu Ling couldn't sleep all night.

Han Gu's confession kept circling in his mind. At this time, he finally understood why this man kept apologizing to him since the first meeting. Because he thinks he has done the most unforgivable thing, the guilt from his original family has stained his existing life with a stain that can never be removed, and now such an accident has happened, it is hard to imagine what it was like heavy burden......

What kind of mood did he carry all the way by himself?

Is it because of this that he has been resisting Alpha's instinct?

Is it also because of this that he has been single for so long without any experience in love?

Chu Ling didn't know, but the dull feeling in his heart didn't disappear because of this, instead it became more and more bitter.